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I didn’t know who he was, but read a bunch of his blog entries yesterday. Brilliant guy, and seemingly very well grounded. I liked his analysis of Wikipedia’s contributor base and community structure (or lack thereof).

Aaron Swartz was a kid… he was not ready to take on the world, and the book was thrown at him for some minor electronic mischief, more on principle than on any actual harm or damage done. (Perhaps it was a tactic to “encourage” settlement because our courts are overburdened, but this reality of the way law is applied seems hardly laudable; it is not justice, it’s coercion.)

Imagine the torture and torment he must have felt at the end. There needs to be a larger lesson for us, a lesson about a scary place in which we’ve ended up (the danger lies below the surface, where we’ve pushed anything we consider challenging), and how we need to wake up and gradually change that direction. In our zeal for creating this perfect garden kept free of weeds we’ve saturated the ground with weed killer; we keep out the plants and flowers by which some people or entities feel threatened, but we’re really throwing out our best collective long-term hope. The sensitive voices of intelligence, rationality, principle, and outside-the-box thinking which only results from the box itself sometimes being ignored with respect to thought and action, are trampled by a cold system with particular ends in mind, which are often not ends which serve the common good but rather the system itself, and the predictability of the inside-the-box careers of those with authority.

That said, also, I believe that individuals need to learn another kind of “grounding,” which is how to become more free of the tremendous emotional torment and dissatisfaction which the mind is capable of generating. If we freeze time and look at just one moment… just the physical reality, minus all these complex social concepts and entanglements of thought, then what is there? What leads a person to kill himself? It’s an evaluation of self-worth (ego), a prediction of continued pain and lack of self-worth or respect in an imagined future (ego), a form of confusion which leads to unclear understanding of worth to others, and a lack of the sense of being wanted and of understanding one’s actual value to the world. This is all mind-generated pain.

This should be approached from two sides, although I only have vague ideas: (a) From the top down, by striving to treat people fairly and in seeking to minimize stress by disallowing the law to be used as a threat, and (b) From the bottom up, by teaching people how to stand up for what is real (this present reality) and fight against the imaginary demons of depression and just the general discomfort which their own minds generate, which come from thinking (and taking the judgments, often imagined, of others, and even themselves, personally) as opposed to simply being here and now which contains no such concepts.

But pain is also real, and this is all “easier said than done.” All of us, but smart people especially, tend to get attached to words and concepts, to ideas and principles, and this forms a kind of prison. We can say “don’t take it personally” and but really, can you just decide not to take it personally, to turn off your emotional reactions to something, which is coming from a deep and conditioned place? It takes a lot of self-work over a lot of time… work looking inside oneself (meditation) and out at reality (presence) to lower the security level of that prison of as-is concepts.

Yesterday I read this: A trip report by Dr. Stanislav Grof from 1970. And my thought afterwards was (although this is a highly simplified picture): There is nothing magical or metaphysical going on here. Rather, what’s being revealed is that this is how the brain thinks. Under the tiny surface ripples of consciousness, a vast ocean of visual, olfactory, “modeling what it’s like to be another creature”, meta-dimensional processing is happening. Thinking! Yet almost all of us are totally, absolutely, absurdly blind to it. (And… the consequences of that blindness are allowing us to trash the planet.) Think about what must be going on down there when you do something as simple as talk. Or, how much effort the “ego” spends in actively squelching many/much of the brain’s capabilities because they seemingly do not serve the individual’s survival/procreative prospects within her cultural “place.” And even to the degree that these capabilities and awareness of them are not being suspended (to conserve energy, to allow us to move and act fast, for immediate survival), we [except for rare individuals] never experience them, in normal conditions, as they actually do take place down in that ocean.

I speculate that at a certain point characterized by a form of extreme scarcity far in the ancient past, humankind evolved through a narrow gateway or nozzle that “optimized” us for a certain kind of awareness. And to this day, we are for the most part the same. Our limited and blocked-up consciousness is a relic of that past, which nevertheless prepared us to get to where we are today, simply because that’s what worked. (Or, it may have had beneficial aspects — our brains had to get larger in order to think abstractly despite the fetters imposed on consciousness.)

[ Because of neuroplasticity various techniques (yogas) can, with long-term extended effort, reshape aspects of the mind, although despite the achievements of some individuals these are probably quite limited; they also don't seem to feed back a great deal into the general welfare of society, at least in an obvious way. ]

But look at what is possible, what our minds are capable of creating. (Dreams are a small hint.) I believe that in the far future, we may look back on humans today with something akin to pity for our needless suffering. That we will have developed “glasses” for the mind, with the help of the various molecules we know of now as crude tools for the science needed to advance such technology. Is this a new thought? I doubt it. I have a newfound appreciation for the quiet and persistent voices of rationality, like the MAPS organization, which are not scared by the taboos and anxieties which swirl about in mainstream culture (and which have gotten amplified into astounding brutality and trampling of liberties worldwide). Fear of the unknown, fear of change, fear of greater realization of what we actually are. When I looked at the MAPS archives I was surprised at how long they’ve been in existence. Since 1988! They have been quietly fighting for 24 years… it’s comforting to see that the walls are finally starting to crack, or so it seems. I’ve started reading some of their archives, which will fill in my understanding, but this is how it seems to me now. Mankind has long had experience with these substances in religious, shamanic or personal contexts, but what is new, now, is their intersection point with science/technology/medicine (and political power, and quick global communication). I wonder whether there’s some kind of emergent social force, something we’re largely unconscious of, which tries to keep us in our place. Perhaps there’s more meaning than I thought in the old Tower of Babel myth. I need to think about that.

I went to the Los Angeles Times Festival of Books last Sunday just to wander around the UCLA campus, people watch, mingle with the crowds surrounding any famous author who might turn up and generally enjoy the weather, and arrived in time for the last two hours of the event. After a while I ambled into Powell library and stopped by the CLICC (Something Something Something Computing Commons) lab on a whim to see if my old login would work, and surprisingly it did (after having graduated six years ago). So I checked my email, saw I had a couple items to respond to, and went to switch the computer’s keyboard to Dvorak mode so I could actually type in a ninja-like manner. Most random Windows machines you’ll find anywhere are easily configurable with a panoply of language options and keyboard layouts, accessible through an icon on the taskbar or on each window’s title bar, and there used to be “U.S. English – Dvorak” listed as such in this lab (because I’d requested it, years and years ago), but the option was sadly now gone. So I navigated to the library’s Suggestion Box web page, where I saw that one other person had subsequently requested Dvorak support (in 2002), saying that it had been there in the past, but had disappeared. The library manager’s response was that she would look into that and fix it right away. So support had been there (when I requested it back in 1998 or so), then had gone away, then had been added again, and now had at some point gone away again. So I typed this suggestion into the suggestion box, with the title “Dvorak keyboard layout support”:

It comes and goes… I was the one who originally requested it years ago, and y’all added it, and all was right with the world. And although I’ve long since graduated, the cool thing is that my account still works, as I was pretty surprised to find out after trying to log in just now on a whim. Anyway, just in case you might think it’s just me (and some other guy/girl), there are a surprising (there’s that word again) number of us Dvorak typists out there, at least from observations made among the ranks at your favorite search engine, where I find myself working nowadays. So for the sake of future generations of speedy typists (and all that), I humbly request permanent Dvorak support in CLICC. Thanks!

I pressed “Send” and got an “ASP Server Configuration Error”. I looked closer at the suggestions posted in the suggestion box and saw that the latest one was from 2004. I checked the URL: yep, nice and simple, clearly I was in the right place, not some old unwatched page still on the Web for old time’s sake. So I’m assuming ASP has been misconfigured and the page broken for the last four years, which is a little sad. Think of all the people who had some kind of brilliant suggestion, typed it into the suggestion box form, pressed Send, got that ASP error (and probably lost their carefully typed prose), and then figured “oh well, I guess it’s broken” and never pursued the matter any further? My eyes almost grew watery at the thought.

I went to the help desk to ask if they knew the suggestion box was broken, and they said “yeah, we know, someone’s working on that now, he’s over there, you could talk to him if you want”. I didn’t point out that it had been (and still probably is as of this writing; I doubt this sort of thing gets fixed in a matter of a week) broken for the last four years, I just wanted them to know that it was, which they did, so I meandered out after they’d suggested that I email my suggestion (whatever it is) to some sort of suggestion box email address.

As I made my way back to my car, I packed myself into the parking lot’s elevator with a number of people and saw that my floor (4) had been pressed, but as the elevator began to move, we all noticed that we were going down, not up, and the standard grumbling and light hearted dismissal occured among my elevator patrons. The door opened on a lower-level floor and a woman with one of those insulated containers typically used for pizza delivery got in. I asked her, “hmm, did you just deliver a pizza?” or something like that, and she said “no, I just got off of work”. I replied (referring to her emply box) along the lines of, “oh, okay, it looks like you just delivered a pizza to someone in the basement of the garage” and everyone in the elevator laughed. I guess you had to have been there.

So I don’t know how many Dvorak users there are out there, but I’d thought it was quite a few, and a greater number than back in the good old days– I often run into people who type using that layout, now. My old roommate at UCLA did, for example, and what are the chances of that? The team lead over here on my team at YouTube does. People don’t have nervous breakdowns anymore when they try to type something into my computer and end up with gibberish. But apparently nobody on the entire UCLA campus (of those who regularly visit the CLICC lab, at least) do, or at least think they have any pull in requesting the feature. (Maybe it was the ASP error.) I thought that was sort of unfortunate.

How late did you end up staying Sat. night? That place was too loud.

“Saturday night we were there until the place closed and they kicked us out. So my “secret” (not really, because I’m always eager to share/commiserate with people if they seem interested, because I don’t know how folks in general can go to clubs/bars/concerts with music/etc. frequently and not have major hearing loss given the volume at which stuff is usually played) is that I (almost) always use earplugs. If you get these particular cheap green foam ones from Sav-On or Rite-Aid, you can cut or bite (which is harder) off the tips, and then they don’t stick out of your ears and look silly. Easy to put in and take out. You didn’t even notice I had them. Works just as well. Everything becomes nice and quiet (although in somewhat of a muffled sense), and you still feel the bass as before, if that’s your thing. And you complain even though the inherent (earplug-less) volume of sound in this club seemed (to me at least) to not be nearly as loud as many places I’ve been to, which puts things in a minor bit of perspective. I should carry around extras because you’re far from the first friend who’s complained about things being too loud– see, it’s not that we’re crotchety old people complaining about the volume of the movie (“back when I whuz a boy… our movies were silent!”), it’s that I intensely dislike the sensation of ringing in my ears the next day, of things sounding weird and muffled; sounds like the jangling of keys, or running water, or even regular old music don’t sound quite right; what’s disconcerting (no pun intended) is knowing that although eventually hearing will return to close to normal, it’ll never quite be 100% normal… maybe 99.9% of what it was before, at best, but given that I enjoy listening to (normal volume) music, why accumulate that hearing loss, little by little, every time I go out to a place like this, when I can have the best of both worlds and enjoy the other aspects of typically loud venues, but in my own, quiet(er) world? Value your hearing.”

Another possibility, here, is that my ears are a little bit more sensitive to volume than others’. But I tend to think that I am physiologically rather normal.

Here’s what I think about resumes and about applying for jobs. My opinion may be somewhat speculative, because I was lucky enough to never be a frequent resume-submitter and so I can’t tell you how much of a response my resume, in particular, garnered. Nor did I spend as great a deal of time sprucing it up as I would now, given the opinions I’ve formed of late. But I’ve been on the other side of the table a couple times, reviewing resumes for a position, and I base what I say on that.

The bulk of this entry is based on an e-mail I wrote to a friend, who asked me to critique her resume. I wasn’t too impressed, and simply began stating what was on my mind. She called it a harsh criticism, but I say, good! Hopefully this was constructive, but in any case that should be a push to make things better.

I’m also going to revise this at a later point and write a longer article. As you’ll see, I have some strong opinions on this here topic.

The e-mail:


Hi ______. I’m going to ramble a bit about resumes in general and then tell you what I think about yours. In general:

Here’s what I think. First of all, design is very important. In a sea of resumes which look all the same, something that stands out because it’s well designed and looks different yet still elegant would get people’s attention. At least, it would get mine. I’ve seen many resumes that look like yours, and I find myself looking for little things which no one really ought to care about, but in the absence of other points to make decisions based on (because like I said, most resumes have almost the same content as far as my knowledge is concerned) that’s what draws my eye. I look for:

  • Grammatical correctness: consistent and correct use of tenses and punctuation.
  • Appearance: fonts, font sizes, and so on.
  • Amount of content. Number of job history positions and my overall impression of the skill involved in each one.

Contrary to what many might think, when you say less about each position you’ve held it often conveys more. If you bullet-point a bunch of rather menial tasks you did at each position, it says that you consider these menial skills important and not just incidental. The less you say about each position, the more intelligent and ambitious you seem, because you aren’t concerned with the basics. For example, of course everyone knows Word and Excel, so there’s no point in stating that. But can you “develop complex reports” in Excel? (Even that doesn’t say too much, though.) Can you build PivotTables? (Aha, specifics– now we’re talking.) Do you know how to use array functions and edit (not just record) macros? To repeat, everyone knows how to use Excel but I want to know if you’ve figured out how to use the more advanced features it provides.

…It’s the tone rather than the concise description of a position you held, because why would I care, with regards to the position I’m hiring you for, exactly what you did? You’re going to be doing something at least slightly and possibly considerably different now, so why do the specifics of your past positions matter?

Basically, were I looking to fill a position, I would be looking for someone intelligent, adaptable, and pleasant to work with.

This may be just me, but I’m big on grammar and consider good communication skills and writing skills important and therefore indicators of education level and intelligence (again, in the absence of other indicators). So, I find that I judge others based on grammar usage in their resumes. Typos aren’t excusable, because you have plenty of time to put this particular document together and proofread it repeatedly and have others proofread it, ad infinitum. It should be representative of the best you can achieve given all the time in the world, or at least nearly so.

Places to which you apply get a sea of resumes looking all alike. Don’t underestimate how little yours will stand out, and how easy it is for someone reviewing it to put it on the “discard” pile for the pettiest of reasons. They have to.

All that said, here’s what I say about yours. Little points, but were I scanning through resumes for a position, I would consider each one somewhat important and each one would add to my overall impression:

  • You need something between your phone number and e-mail address.
  • The whole top row is shifted too far to the right.
  • You have some sentences ending in periods and some not.
  • The dates after the entries in the “education” section are not a range, so they seem to mean something different from the dates below in the same column, for which there is a range. That’s a little inconsistent.
  • The Tahoma font does not have a “natural” italic version. Windows creates a “fake” italic version by slanting the letters. This looks bad. Verdana is the same thing as Tahoma with more spacing between the letters, and it does have a real italic version.
  • You need to list more skills than just Word, Excel, STATA, and the other two acronyms. (I don’t know what those are.) STATA is good as are the other two, but like I said a couple times, everyone knows Word and Excel (and Powerpoint). What else are you good at? I think you read a lot, maybe there’s a way to incorporate a mention of that. You’re outgoing, easy to work with, and have somewhat of a “tell it like it is” personality. Those are much harder points to incorporate, though, but if you find a way to subtly show them I think that’s worth a lot.

To sum this up: When I, as an employer, have a stack of fifty resumes to look through to fill one position, I look for excuses to eliminate each resume. A small mistake, inconsistency, or typo can be such an excuse. I have no choice but to eliminate resumes for the pettiest of reasons. On the other hand, something unique and interesting about a resume can lead me to put it in a pile of its own. Normally it’s hard to be unique and interesting, but one way to achieve that in a paper document is through the use of elegant and professional design. Colors would be especially helpful in this regard, and I don’t care what is traditionally done. Color printers are ubiquitous, and if black and white is the tradition, I will give you all the more credit for being willing to throw away that dogma.

Here is an article I found a while back which I almost entirely agree with. The author is looking for a programmer, but his points are just as valid when applied to any field: Joel on Software on Resumes.